It occurred to me today, as it has occurred to me many times in the past, that much of my stress is self-inflicted. Give me the tiniest germ of a thought and I will overthink it to smithereens. And while I am overthinking, I will think of myself overthinking and overthink my overthinking. It is a mental condition, I think. One may argue that I overthink for a living, but it does make life unnecessarily difficult.
Take today. I am going to Korea for the A5N tournament that starts late May but I am going to London next week and will be away for a couple of weeks. When I get back I’d have to rush my Korean visa application. What if I don’t get it on time? Okay, I’ll get it before I go to London. But what if I don’t get it by next week, I can’t fly without a passport aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa overthink overthink.
The Korean visa takes 3 days (If you have US/UK/Aus/NZ visas and have been to Korea before. Otherwise it takes 5 days).
According to the Korean embassy website, you can only submit visa applications on weekdays from 9 to 11 am. Noooooo I’ll have to wake up early! What if I don’t wake up on time? I set every alarm in the house for 8:30 am.
I woke up at 7:30. In fact, I woke up every 3 hours to check the time, overthink overthink.
The Korean embassy is at McKinley Hill. I have no idea where that is. The maps on the net were not much help. What if the cabbie didn’t know where McKinley Hill is! It’s hard enough to get a cab when everyone is on the way to the office, but try finding a taxi driver who knows where McKinley Hill is. I live in Makati, and I’ve had to direct cabbies to Edsa! And then the crawl through traffic etc etc. . .
The cabbie knew where it was. We were there in 10 minutes. Would’ve been sooner if it weren’t so far.
According to the information I had, the visa application cost USD 30. That’s about Php 1300. Noooooo I only had P1700 in my wallet, what if the cab fare cost over P200 and the embassy uses a higher exchange rate! Aaaaaaaaaaaa would there be ATMs in the vicinity?
There are many ATMs in the area, the cab fare was P120, and the Korean visa is free.
Yes, you read it right. For a visit of less than 60 days your Korean visa is free.
As you can see, I nearly caused my own head to implode from stress. (This is an abstract by the way, I overthought many, many other non-essential details.) So on the ride home from the embassy—the entire application process took 10 minutes—I thought of forming Overthinkers Anonymous.
Membership would be full even before the formal launch—there’s a reason my friends and I are friends. First we will overthink the name “Overthinkers Anonymous”. Someone will argue that “overthink” is not a proper word, and someone else will express a dislike for compound words. Inevitably someone will wonder out loud whether forming an Overthinkers Anonymous is not in itself a form of overthinking.